dear old ashley

Haha. today i went to SAO to settle logistics for ISG 07. and i suddenly saw this wonderful picture of ashley. haha he looks so happy!! so yandao!! and he looks the same last time and now. his face is really never change at all sia.
no wonder he was sports king.

FUCK MYSELF

I DO NOT KNOW WHY BUT I AM FEELING SO MUCH ANGST AND EMOTIONS IN ME NOW!! THE AMOUNT OF ANGER THAT IS IN ME... WTF! IF i had a knife now i would freaking stab it into anybody.

THE NEXT PERSON THAT CROSSES ME NOW IS SO GOING TO MAKE ME KILL HIM! I WILL JUST TAKE MY CHAIR AND SMASH INTO HIS/HER FUCKING HEAD!

doesn't matter if tomorrow is my last paper. i dun feel stress i dun feel relief to know that tomorrow is my last paper.

can someone tell me why i am feeling dis way. God please help me. please.

The Young and The Brave

I just want to dedicate this entry to the 5 national dragon boaters that died in cambodia just last week. Its really a tragedy to see 5 young promising young men with so much passion for something they really like to die just like that. Condolences to the family members and i hope that all my friends who knew the 5 of them would stay strong. Although i do not know them personally it still saddens the heart when i read of the news in the newspaper.

The 5 of them are Mr Reuben Kee En Rui, 23, Mr Stephen Loh Soon Ann, 31, Mr Chee Wei Cheng, 20, Mr Jeremy Goh Tze Xiong, 24, and Mr Poh Boon San, 27.

They will forever be remembered in the hearts of their loved ones and friends.

Man Utd crashes to Bolton

Standard Chartered Marathon

Going to run in the Standard Chartered Marathon in the coming sunday. went to collect my runner's pack from suntec just this saturday. it was so "QIAO"!! i met weilian and eddy who came down from school and i went from home. they were complaining to me about helping so much people collecting their race package. LOL. all those lazy farkers. Anyway the stuff inside the bag was quite shitty except for the singlet and the shoebag and maybe the free deep heat that came along. i think this year's singlet is so much nicer than previous year.

I like my number 9396. i shall go buy 4D with it. all of you should do the same too!! if the number comes out then must share the prize money with me k? hahahaha.
If u guys wan u can come down to support me on 02 December.
can check out the the standard chartered marathon website.
http://www.singaporemarathon.com/en/

My nerdy specs

This is my spare spectacles that i need to wear for now. my old specs is spolit.

I think i look like a cock. damn nerd. cannot believe i bought it last time.

3 more papers left

Question: What's a mix between a Bangla and an Indian?

Ans: Bangl-a-neh

what a stupid joke. i can't believe i thought of that. i am really going crazy.

Question: What's a mix between a Chinese with bangla nipples?

Ans: i think i know but i cannot type the ans here.

Anyway based on the bio-molecular engineering notes that i am studying now. being stress releases a hormone in your body that will cause the cells in you to continually break down the fatty acids that are in your body into the components needed to generate energy. so to all the girls out there who wanna be slim. go ahead and make yourself stressed. dun be too relax cos relaxation makes u fat! hahahaha. lucky i am not fat. dun have to worry so much.

lonely supper

i didn't realise eating supper alone would taste so bad.

it doesn't go better with being ignored

it has really been a long time since i felt so much.

i hate myself.

why am i so stupid.

Buy Nothing Day

screwed on a tuesday morning

nothing to say. just felt a need to put an entry to make myself remember how hard i am being screwed now by fluids. thanks alot NTU. i love the education. stupid me. praying hard.

最长的电影

this is the stupid song by Jay Chou that is so nice which made me and Weilian sing so loud in our room until we got complained and warned by out Hall officer Albert. I didn't know singing in your room can get u evicted too! hahahahaha.

anyway here is the lyrics. damn nice.

最长的电影

我們的開始　是很長的電影
放映了三年　我票都還留著

冰上的芭蕾　腦海中還在旋轉
望著你　慢慢忘記你

朦朧的時間　我們溜了多遠
　冰刀劃的圈　圈起了誰改變

　如果再重來　會不會稍嫌狼狽
　愛是不是不開口才珍貴

再給我兩分鐘　讓我把記憶結成冰
　別融化了眼瓷@你妝都花了要我怎麼記得

　記得你叫我忘了吧　記得你叫我忘了吧
　你說你會哭　不是因為在乎

my female hamster "yafen"

My hamster yafen. hahaha. lucky she doesn't read my blog. she will never know my hamster is named after her. but if u are wondering why i named it after her? just read my bottom entries.

anyway i just played with her for awhile as i was bored after studying. but decided to take a photo of her as she is a super irritating hamster. keep pushing all the food stored in her mouth. and the food stinks like shit due to the smelly mouth that she has. i wonder why? she don't even smoke. BWAHAHAHA. she also damn fat. She feels just like a furry ball whenever i carry her.
i should starve her to let her lose some weight. i am such a good owner.



My other hamster shown below is called commando because he survived 4 days 4 night without food and water in his previous owner's room. somehow he was found lying in the laundry pail dying but junyi managed to nurse him back to health. Commando is abit eccentric as he loves to sleep like shown below perched on somewhere high. crazy. maybe he thinks he is a bird. but nevertheless he has damn big balls. BWAHAHA. he is going to be a father soon!!

Achmed the dead terrorist

Hilarious. Must watch.

exams and so so much more

A few more days more to exams. I really need to start piah-ing.

Its really a bad time.

Being important to someone feels very good.

I must stick to my words and my promises.

No more disappointment to my loved ones.

I want a new T-shirt.

Miss my father. More than i thought i would.

Fluids and thermo is killing me.

I hate Santosh.

I must do quiet time regularly.

I have ugly hair. sucks.

New spectacles would do wonders for me now.

6 days to my 1st paper.

11 days to my first core paper.

drinking booze b4 exams. Nuts

Went drinking with Jiade, yafen, jasper, sharon, phyllis, jinyu, li ann at holland village.
nothing tastes better than 2 pints of Erdinger mix!
and jiade shows us how to smoke 2 cigarettes at one time!

studying in school

Pouting. hoping that we might let her in.

But we didn't. hahahaha


Today i went to study with my 2 damn zai seniors of CBE-yafen and jasper. Both of them are slackers but still do damn well in exams. well it was sort of a coincidence of meeting them as i went to the computer lab for my computing tutorial and turns out that it was cancelled so i ended up studying there for my final exams. We were there until 1am so jasper and i decided to play a prank on yafen and we locked her out of the building without her access card. so she was stuck out there pouting and begging us for a full 15 mins before we relented. anw yafen is human hamster. she loves kua zi and she was eating it the whole time while studying in the computer lab. damn noisy. just like my hamsters.

SO i have decided to name my female hamster yafen. haha. still looking for a name for the male one.

Ivy's n Zhaofeng Bday!!

The birthday boy in the center. Zhaofeng.
he is a horny guy.
damn lots of scandals.
anw my hair is damn ugly. fuck.

Shebec at Zhaofeng's bday. Jason. Phy, Me, Jacq.
All in SU15 except me. =(
nvm i hope it rains on SU15 universe bbq.

Zhaofeng's dog. phyllis is supposed to mate with it. hahaha

This little girl called rachel said i was handsome.
ITS REALLY TRUE THAT KIDS DON'T LIE!!

Phyllis my disgusting co, me and Weilian my roomie.
who borrowed my shirt cos he dun have black t-Shirt.

Jiehuai, Jasper, Sharon, Phyllis, ME, Jiade.

i do not know why although it was Ivy's birthday, i do not have any photos of me with her. i guess she was busy entertaining alot of other people at her place end up ignoring me. =(
plus i didn't bring a camera along so i guess thats why.

it was a fun day.

Saturday

i hate the airport.
i hate BR1226.
i feel sore.
damn sore.
but what can i do?

SU14 seniors camp

Pushing cheewee out of the picture

Sea and toons(i think)

Trying out the Games

Seaworld Seniors!! i love them all!!

Slacking at the cushions

taking a photo before testing out the Wargames. why is that phyllis always in front?? idiot.

Night Cycling. Shag.

jiade not helping out with the tying of the sedan.

I AM NOT MARSHMELLOW!!!

Phyllis doing the tower jump. Oak calves. hahahaha

The girls love mud and drain.

stupid mud made my white stripes orange.

Taking a photo before river crossing

The correct way of a pyramid.

Pulling the lorry in agony. why?

Because all these girls ate too much supper during the holidays.

SU 14 seniors!!!

I love Sports Camp!!

Good luck for SU 15 this year. =(

I hope i can be a GL again in SU 16.

today

i am really such an idiot at times. i do not fail to surprise myself at the stupidity of the actions that i do that will cause hurt to my friends around me and esp my loved ones. i guess forgiveness is always hard to seek. one person said trustworthiness is something i do not have or repute to have. i was really shocked. i've always thought that i would be a trustworthy person with a great sense of responsibility. i guess i was always living in a illusion.

Nobody trusts nobody because in this world people always have to put up a mask or a front in order to not get hurt. That is why its always hard to really know someone and be friends with someone. Try as i might to be the correct person or the right person or the perfect person, but i will always fail. i will never live up the expectations of the people around me. its not that i cannot but somehow or rather i will screw it up halfway all the time, either intentionally or accidentally. and life just continues to move on. leaving only me behind to wallow in my mud of misery.

2nd chances will never come.i think.i hope it comes for me.its always hard to rebuild something as compared to tearing something down.sigh.mistakes really hurt.