SU14 universe BBQ

The 3 yandaos, Joel, Weilian, Jinrong.My horrendous looking CO GL phyllis yap right in the middle of the picture.
Thats why her face is covered in the next picture!! good job done!!

i am a hamster freak

I feel bad that i am not mourning for my dead Duabui.

OMG. i just bought 2 more hamsters along with a new cage.

i am definitely an impulsive shopper.
anw my 2 new hamster is yandao and chiobu. hopefully they will have children and then can have a new happy family in the new cage i bought for them!! hahaha
the wheel is too big for them to run in. so they are sleeping under it instead.

my new hamster (has damn big balls)

Junyi gave me a new hamster!! hahaha
and it has damn big balls. his name will be "dua lan pa". hahahaha joking
i need help with a name for it.

Body of dua pui

i am very sad. dua bui really died. he looks like he is sleeping but he is really dead.

Right or left Brain

http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/story/0,22049,22535838-5012895,00.html

check the website above out.
i am a right brainer.

RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
believes
appreciates
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
impetuous
risk taker

thats me. weird.

sadness overwhelms me

"As some of you may have already heard, our dear friend and council mate David, has passed away peacefully this morning at 7.15am, of colon cancer. He was diagnosed earlier this year, and had been bravely fighting the cancer for the past months.
May we remember him for his wonderful kindness and honesty, and for his courage and tenacity in his journey."

This was the email that i recieved on friday. i have nothing but pure shock at how fast life can be drained out of person. At his memorial on saturday when i saw the lifeless corpse of a friend and a christian brother whom i can remember fondly for his jovial personality and his tenacity and passion for the students' council and his love for God.. a swept of overwhelming sadness just took over me.. it made me re-think about my priorities in life. what if i had only 1 hr of my life left? who would i spend it with? what would i do? At the end of the service, i prayed for his family and asked God to relieve the pain in the hearts of his loved ones and relatives. i guess this is the only minimum i could do.

and when i thought the worse was over. It happened during dinner. I received a call from char who then told me that my hamster duabui died. that its body was hard and cold despite repeated poking with the scissors and it only rolled around the bottom of the cage like a dead animal specimen. all the times i spent with it and feeding it just flashed across my eyes. although it was a hassle changing the bedding and cleaning the cage but i enjoyed doing it. What really shocked me was that saturday when i last saw it. duabui was still perfectly fine. i couldn't understand why it just died over the weekend. i didn't manage to even play with it one last time.
life is really damn fragile. i am damn afraid at how people and things around me disappear like that. In a blink of an eye

I have only this gut wrenching feeling in my chest now. i feel like crying but no tears.

i think i will have to buy another hamster for my sister. =(

studying at the library

Today is my first time studying at the Lee Wee Nam library after so long for this semester. Its really about time that i have to put in some effort into revising for the exams since it is only like another 20 days away. Was studying damn hard and suddenly i saw a ghost-like character sitting next to me. wtf. damn scary.

Decided to take a picture with the ghost but she was camera shy. hahahaha.
anw i am damn poor nowadays, i think i only have ard 8 dollars worth of cash on me now and 8 dollars in my bank. wtf man. seriously damn poor. i think the road sweepers are even richer than me. i must think of a way to break my cycle of poverty. i hate end of months.

Exams and I can do it!!

I can do it!! i know i can.. its only just Fluid Systems, Chemical Thermodynamics , Computational Methods in Chemical Engineering and Biomolecular Engineering.

old photos

Me and my buddy zhiming at a trip to Ubin.

My sister and me

4L boys of Chinese High.

Hahahahaha. i was looking through some of my photos saved in my disgusting, pathetic and cui desktop. and i found this photos and decided they were worthy of being posted on my blog. =)

GL Reject night..

thanks to all my freshies for the supper to cheer me up! at least must thank cheeyong for treating me. hahaha. then i had some beer later with my best Co ever phyllis yap. the disgusting nipple pincher of SU14. The rest of the other rejects left without waiting for me. TMD.

Dejected Face of the GL reject.. sad to the max..

And thanks to my CO who is all flushed from just one can of beer for cheering me up. damn loser. Hahaha. but her red cheeks are damn cute. now i dun feel tat bad animore. i think.
i just hope that i can move on. knowing that from now on things will be hugely different in my life. at least now i must work hard for the last thing that is available to me. =)

SU 15 no more

i guess when someday i read back this entry i will still feel damn sian diao.
i am not a GL anymore. i have always tot that it would not happen to me. but it happened.
talking to pple jus made me feel more regretful about my actions. Stupid me.

phyllis and sk still say going to treat me meal. but wat i would really wan is for them not to forget abt me. i jus have that sick feeling when SU 15 comes closer and with all the GL bonding and gatherings. people will forget or even remember that I was once a GL. the feeling of being cut off from the sports club family is just overwhelming, all the experiences in SU 13 and SU14, going thru the finale as a freshie and GL, going thru sports camp leading and being lead, practicing for world performance, making photoframes, calling freshies, no more cheering. all this has prematurely ended for me.

i remember wat ashley once said. when u are just standing at the grandstand watching sports camp happening. sure u can just be around as a laojiao and come back to help out. but its just so damn different from being in sports camp itself. Now i finally understood wat he said. and it jus sux that i have to experience it first hand.

people tell me that u can come back again in year 3. still got one more year. but jus to think abt it why would the next camp chair choose me when i wasn't a GL the previous year? fark. sure u can come back to help out as sub comm and stuff. but i guess things will be different. it will just be different. other GLs will be different.

i really wan to thank all the wonderful frens that i have made, thank you for Skylla, Shebec, SeaWorld, Phyllis my only Best Co and the experiences that was given to me by Sports camp. i know i have been a jerk or an idiot at times but i really did hope that for the past year i have brought more smiles than frowns to Sports club.
i just hope i can move on.

GL list

Senior Guys
jiade
jasper
weidian
jinrong
edwin
chengjie
jonas
mengheng

Senior Girls
phyllis
waisan
lixian
liying
silin
krystal
yafen
janelle

there goes my GL post for SU 15.
no matter how i see it.. my name is not in there.
FUCK

GL..

tonight is the night when the list is out.. tats wat they say
damn stress..
thinking abt wat if i didn't get it.
i will be so damn sian diao.. i tink i will just go and kill junming.
TMD!!
hahahahahahahaha.

hand job

Recently my modeling agency called me to ask me to submit pictures of my hands for a handjob.

this is how the conversation went:
joel: hello
Agency: hello. is this joel? i'm calling for create talents and i need you to submit pictures of ur hands for a hand job.
joel: huh??? (i was woken up from my afternoon nap by a person asking me to do a handjob. so i was thinking like wat the fuck??) hand job??
agency: yah a hand modeling job.
joel: huh? you sure??

this continued for awhile..

Agency: yeah. so can you please email me photos of your hands from wrist upwards??
joel: (still blur) okok can can.. wrist up ah?? must take both sides of the hand??
agency: up to you.
joel: okok.. thank you.

below are the pictures of my hands. hahahahaha


anw i didnt get the job in the end..

i think my hands are too ugly.

Fuck. my 1st ever hand job and i failed it. LOL

More of Duabui

Enjoying his House!! hahaha he shits and pees inside. damn disgusting. must always clean it periodically or shit will stick on his fur.

Dua Bui's beautiful home.. lol

Squeezing Duabui. hahaha. he is trying to wriggle out but cannot escape my iron grip.

my hamster

i bought a hamster on last friday with phyllis at bugis.
took damn long to choose one because of the stupid sales person who kept on going abt the importance of the cleanliness of the hamster and how to maintain one. but in the end i chose a brown roboroski hamster who was damn fat and active. LOL and her name is dua bui cos she is jus damn fat and adorable.

she is ignoring my camera. tmd. the red colour box by the right of the picture is the foodbowl.
i love my dua bui. actually she is supposed to be a bday present for my sister but i dun feel like giving it to her already. LOL

Visit to David

Today me, shuqi, meina, yisheng the 5 of us went to visit our Students Council friend David Liao at dover park hospice. never would i expect to be so shocked at how fragile life can be. especially us humans. easily struck down by an illness or disease and we will be gone from the face of this world.
sigh. Cancer is really a disease that brings suffering to not just the person and the people ard him/her. :(

we wrote David a card and tried to cheer him up by visiting him. but it turns out that he was even too tired to speak to us properly. and all of us were lost for words when we saw how a cheerful bubbly guy after years would turn into a sickly skinny bed ridden young man whose life would be burned out in a twinkling of an eye. we didnt know how to console him but could only manage to pray for him, hoping and trusting in God that He will heal him. i guess all of us would have definitely brought back something from this visit to David. each of us deep in thought after leaving his ward.

we will definitely be visiting him again and hoping that he will look more healthy.

IVP

went to watch NTU girls basketball team play their 1st ivp match last night. quite funny as it was my first time watching my co-gl phyllis play basketball. i didn't know she was that good until last night. damn funny to see her pant like a sick dog and her face all flushed, just like her seh face during nature experience. LOL like below.. Super ugly. anw they lost 44-43 to combined ITE. waste our time to go support her. hahaha. anw she only managed to score 2 points, so yeah.

and we went for supper after that with all my freshies and jiehuai, sharon and junming and peisee and bf nicholas beh. hahaha. must realli thank phyllis for all her mucus from her nose. TMD. now my face is like full of disgusting muck. It really justifies why she was thrown into the hall 6 pond together with the NOOB cheeyong. Seriously it gave me much pleasure, but being a nice guy i proceed on to help phyllis out from the pond and in the end i got hugged by her and ended up smelling just as repulsive as her. i wonder who has peed and shit in that pond?? it was fun! haha shall do it again on wed. this time i will make phyllis drink the pond water. HAHAHA

tempting MC

i am damn tempted to take MC for my thermo test!!!
i dun wan to pao.
damn sad.
damn sad.

first post

my virgin post on dis blog !!

haha many thanks to that stupid phyllis who tell me tat u can just upload pictures using blogger..

ME!!!